This morning I was trying to imagine how I might react and how it would feel to receive my first actual rejection letter. I know this is not sound cosmic ordering but my thoughts were a shallow attempt to divert my attention. I was trying to compare and equate it with the actual pain I felt as I pushed myself through the exercise regime of Jillian Michael’s, 30 day shred DVD. Jillian Michael’s, if you are not familiar with the name, is one of the personal trainers who works with the contestants on the TV show The Biggest Loser. The latter, a ranking I hope to avoid, but I digress. Her fitness work out is relatively short, only twenty minutes in length, but if you were thinking of buying it on that basis, trust me it feels like longer. It certainly gets the heart rate up and will make the muscles work hard and ache, but it ‘gets results’. She states in her introductory blurb that she wants you, the victim, ( she doesn’t actually call you victim but be assured if you make it to the end of Work Out One, you may well feel like one) to regard her as your own personal coach and as is typical with this role, throughout the programme she gives plenty of words of encouragement. I’ve done the work out quite a few times now, so much, that these motivators can wash over me but I do like chorusing along with her “This is your time…..” as we alternate arms punching the air in front of us “Make” punch “the” punch “most of it”. We chant the phrase together which is the only thing we have in common at this point as she looks composed and holds a perfect 9o degree squat while I, in contrast, grimace straining trying to hold the same, but not really, low position. But give her due it was Jillian who not only got me through twenty minutes of exercise this morning, she also manged to inspire me too.
‘This is my time’, I reminded myself as I showered off afterwards. I will indeed “make the most of it” I promised myself. My idea of what this entailed was to learn a bit more about how Blogging works. I’m not very computer savvy, as already mentioned in a previous post, but having obtained a copy of ‘Creating your own Blog’ a book by Tris Hussey from the local library to help me set up this blog in the first place, I am a little wiser – not much, (my fault not his) but one thing I have learnt from Hussey is that there are great advantages in be made if I embrace blogging more actively. “Create a community around your blog” is his advice. So I made the most of my time today and got active. I decided I would start small, this taking the form of making a comment on another’s persons blog. My recipient http://kellywiggains.wordpress.com/about/ was chosen among many because I liked the comment she had made on another’s writers blog. So it was decided I would write to her. My comment was short. I introduced myself and said ‘Hi’. OK not overly inspiring or very riveting but it has at least set me on my way.
Evidently I see that rejection is not my only fear, missing out on an opportunity is another. But thinking about it, if I do develop a strategy that makes me more proactive in finding a community which comes with the potential of being able to opens more doors do I not also increase my chances of feeling and attracting even more rejection? May be then if I am to keep a positive frame of mind through out my trials of getting myself recognised I should fear rejection less and embrace it more, for at least then it pushes me one step further in the right direction, rather than leaving me behind drowning in my own tears.